The ring on your left hand could save you from many questions or problems. However, it may also create many questions. It works as a state license to keep people away from you.
The incidents always happen in our life every day. Nobody is immune from those accidents. Some events leave the permanent scar. Some scar heals with the time. It depends on the level of severity of the incidents how soon it would let you heal. Some time impact is so severe, which could changes you completely. The person becomes a different person from inside to outside. It depends on the seriousness of life events.
Polio and plague could leave the impression on the human body permanently.
Does it matter if incidents impact on your body physically or mentally? People pay more attention to physical injuries but often ignored psychological injuries.
Someone hurt psychologically, and people tell the suffering person, “time would heal you.” Time does not heal every victim. people starting to support the person different way,” can you let it go? He does not deserve you. He is not the only option left for you on this planet. Move on and forward with your life.
The church lady always supports her with an example from the bible, which helps her a lot. The mentor/boss is always there for her.
She survived many times both from the psychological and physical incidents. The deadly car accident in 2014, left a scar on her left arm. People often pass the comments when they look at her scar, “ouch, it must be painful.” She thinks in her mind, “dummy, I took Ibuprofen only once. It is already surgically fixed.” Often she hears, “Did you have a carpal tunnel surgery done on your arm .” It is almost more than six years now, so she has been tired of explaining the entire story. She changed her polo shirt from a half sleeve to full sleeve, which has controlled the conversation entirely.
She sustained traumatic physical injuries from falling when she was in acute depression and delirium state. It has also left permanent injuries on her body. Recently her spine was fixed with laser surgery and some cement was filled in the cracks of her spine. She told the surgeon, “will it leave a scar on my spine.” The surgeon said, “no, it won’t give you any scar.”
The major brain surgery is on its way. The neurosurgeon has refused to postpone the surgery due to Coronavirus. She asked him again, “well, I could die fighting with the virus. Can you postpone it until the situation is under control”?
The surgeon said, “no, you may live with the virus, but stroke could be deadly if I don’t relieve the pressure by lifting up your depress skull bone.”
She asked immediately, “will it leave a scar on my head? Will you shave my head?”
The surgeon laughed, “it might, but nobody will able to know because your hair will be regrown. The scalp is very vascular, hence the chance of scar will be very less.”
She said, “no big issue, I could cover my shaved head with a hat or cap.”
Well, she has found the solution to cover her physical injuries and scars without anybody’s help.
Her soul has shattered, and scars have caused permanent adhesion in her soul. Psychological injuries happened many times, and she defeated them and became a survivor because she was so young to know the consequences of seriousness.
However, the last injury on her soul was stabbed so severely that has left her wandering. Her soul wanders here and there. Pain becomes so intense that even almighty cover his ears because of her screaming.
Blessings and support of others help her temporarily. But the intensity of pain getting worse day by day. She tries to heal but couldn’t succeed. However, she can conceal her screams from her friends, but almighty still hear it and covers his ears.
Don’t judge her that she might don’t help herself or She just needs attention from others. She asks others if you need to judge then judge my seriousness and the passion of my love ￼for him”.
She tries best to go away. She left her home and opted to have a nomadic life. She has changed the way she used to dress up. Neither her nor others know how changing the style of clothes could help her. Everything has packed and stored except for a few pants and shirts and one jacket. Even she has changed her eating pattern and style. She used to drink 3-4 liter of cold chilled water every day, but now she hardly touches the water. It is a little thing but doesn’t judge her for not trying harder.
She always uses reading glasses. Often he had chosen the frame of her glasses. Now she cries enough, she is almost blind, but she doesn’t go for eye evaluation because he won’t be there to chose the frame. The lens of glasses looks so worse, but she refuses to go because it would remind him.
The significant change is a diamond ring in her left hand. the necklace with his name around her neck is always there. Isn’t she trying something different? The ring is the sign of marriage to his soul. He has given her a necklace, which she calls her mangle sutra.
The only four dysfunctional geniuses know how and where and why the diamond ring has come from. A new place, everyone thinks she is married. Often they laugh on this topic, and she gives them a look to scratch their faces with her nails.
However, nobody asks about him at her new workplace. She obeys the command, not to mention his name or tells anyone. She wrapped her face with a fake smile. Her behavior has also changed significantly. This incident has changed her life and mind and body, and she is trying to cover those scars.
She gives a strange look to Almighty, which asks a specific question. Only the almighty and she knows what the question is?
She asks politely, “please don’t judge me. I am trying my best”.