The curiosity and the pain

The pain compels her to ask questions to others. The curiosity to know the facts makes her ask questions from others. Why? Is this true? Her curiosity leads her to the questions that give her more pain.
Why did this happen to me? Why did he abandon me when he knew how I could be shattered without him? Those unsolved questions continue to hit her soul with the hammer. Why has her pain not gone away? Is his soul attached to her soul from the previous life? Why doesn’t she have the desire to move forward? Was her mom right about him?
Why does she sometimes become so restless? Why does she feel emptiness? Why does she feel so sad and depressed? Did the almighty send him to sever her soul? Even though she tries to bring some humor, her soul remains sad. Should she have hidden everything? Could she have been the happiest person? Should she become just like others to use and abuse? Should she have left them to die alone?

Could she have behaved in the same manner as him if she were in his shoes? No, she would have never acted like him. she would never act like him. Instead, she keeps her word, which doesn’t matter what price she pays. What could be her reaction if one of the children did this to someone? How could her parents have reacted if she had done the same thing?

Khan was a freedom fighter who had gone almighty a few years back. How he should have reacted to her pain and tears. One of his sons has told her that our father could have knocked at her bubby’s door to ask in front of everyone, “why have you come to the field if you were not strong enough to fight back. Khan’s father had similar thoughts to mine.”
It does not matter to get someone with force. It is a matter of trust, love, and feelings. It is a matter of a broken soul that continues to break without his love every day. It is a matter of her life that has ended without him. It is a matter of feelings of a human who wants to be treated like a human being.

Her behavior could be overreacting to others, but she knows how important this matters to her. He is not only the love of her life but also means everything to her. Once, she had started her world with him. Now, she is lost in space without him. Her mind is trapped in her own body. The brain is busy finding answers to those questions. Her soul continues to wait for him. Often she feels doomed to her own body. She thinks that her love, body, and beliefs are buried alive in the graveyard. Does it matter anymore?

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