The Great Failure

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The little girl continued to defeat whoever came in her competition. She was silly, but nobody could compete with her in sports and education. The little girl was a brat and spoiled kid, but she never disrespected anybody. This was the reason that everybody had forgiven her innocent mistakes. Nobody could figure it out who was responsible for spoiling her. Everybody had blamed each other. After making mistakes, she often said, “I am so sorry. I was not mean to do it. I really don’t how it happened”.

Her sister-in-law asked her, “Did buffalo went into my room to steal my lipsticks”. She was so innocent and always said, “yes, Babiji, I saw her going in your room. I even tried to stop her, but she did not listen to me. She is not a good buffalo anymore”.

Within two seconds, she would tell her Babiji, “No, Buffalo did not go to get your lipsticks. I painted the buffalo with your lipsticks”. Babiji always said, “It is okay, but next time don’t use my lipsticks on buffalo, but you can apply it on your lips”. She answered quickly without thinking, “No, I don’t need lipstick. I am born beautiful. I am beautiful right here”. The little girl touched her heart to tell her sister-in-law that her heart is beautiful because her chachu and Abu told her.

The happiness on her ailing father was seen clearly when she won her first gold medal. There were not many girls in her sports field, so she mostly competed with the boys. A strange brightness came into her eyes when the boys had lost the competition. She told her father, “It is fun to beat up the boys, father”. She still remembers her sport mates such as Sunil, Thapa, Bahadur, and Saibal. She still remembers her Japanese sensei. She says proudly, Bollywood actor and she had same Japanese sensei.

She loved and enjoyed playing all day long. She loved wandering into nature. She loved talking to the trees and birds. Her mother insisted her going to the temple for the prayer, but the girl always said, “Mommy, I like to play in the firm house. My friends are waiting for me”. The mother went to the temple alone and had prayed for the wellness of her daughter. Her chachu always went early morning to the temple to pray for the girl. On the other side of the road, Abu had offered his namaz to Allah for the girl’s wellness and prosperity. Baru Baba and Ponga also blessed the little girl.

The girl continued to defeat everything whoever came into her way because many people were praying for her. She continued to win because of the blessing and love of many people.

The amount of blessing and prayers were continued to decrease as she reached the age of 16. She did not learn how to pray the almighty. She always looked at Abu when he had offered his prayer to Allah and she listened to her mother performing different prayer. She always had made her own prayer. She often said, “Babaji, can you please kind to me and tell my mommy I need this, or Can you help me do this?”

In the end, only her bubby left to pray for her. Mother was gone to almighty, but she left her daughter in the hand and life in the man. He often went to the Sikh temple to pray for her. He went to Friday prayer, and had asked the wellness of his loving woman.  Now, he is also gone and nobody else is there, so she should do her own prayer. She is not anybody’s daughter, niece, wife, or sister anymore.

Today, on her way home, she turns the music up. She cries while listening to music. Of course, nobody is around her as usual. She has reached home around 0100 in am. She grabs the cup of tea and sat outside in the backyard. The temperature is in minus degrees, but it could not freeze her tears.

She sits outside on the porch in the cold weather. She looks around and prays to God. She has not kneeled to pray Almighty like Abu used to do. Neither she has covered her head to pray as her mother used to do in the Sikh temple. She sits outside and looks for God if he is somewhere in her backyard. Suddenly, she touches her heart, “No, you live here, my dear almighty”. The flood of tears welled into her eyes, “Banny and Ina, can you hear me? Let’s pray to God together. God, god, can you please come to live at my house? Can you also bring my bubby with you? These are only two things I want. Thank you, very much for being kind to me”.

She asks the boys, “I think we do have enough space in the house. The entire house is empty which feel so scary. We should invite all Babaji, Allah, Ram, Jesus, and Buddha to live with us”.

Her house, soul, and brain are also empty, but there is only space for almighty, Banny, and Ina.

The boys said, “Maybe, we can hide all almighty in our house”.

She is agreed with them hiding almighty in the house. However, she could not agree with her mind. Why her loving man had failed her? He had failed her in each aspect of her life. He maybe did not pray from his mind. He might be not a true Muslim. He might be not a true Khan. The man and khan should keep his words and promise. He is failed to keep his word and promise which has made her automatically failure She could not defeat anybody now. She has given up her fight because the only person who belongs to her doesn’t perform the prayer from his heart. How she would win now. This man has defeated her, unfortunately, she loves him which continues to block all her paths to the victory.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

One thought on “The Great Failure

  1. Munna Sara, this is so beautiful! I am sure God was listening. “Come into my heart” is the very prayer he sent Jesus to answer. (Hey, I can’t help it! I’m a church lady who prays for you!! 🙂 ) Blessings, my friend!

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