I can’t believe that time is passed so quickly. Everyone seems busy making their 2020 goals. I also thought about making the 2020 goal when my big boy came to ask me, “Hey, mom, a local breeder is selling a pure border collie 4 months old male doggy just for $2700. Maybe it is a sign to replace Banny boy now”. I was busy writing when he said. I have no idea when the word came out of my mouth, “does anybody selling Altaf so I can buy him too. Is this time to replace everyone?
The boy did not leave the room. Instead, he smiled and sat next to me. He said, “mom, it is a time to start living life again. You need to start somewhere in a new life. How about starting your life by replacing Banny with another dog”.
I looked at the boy carefully. My little bald head has grown up like a big boy. I knew right away that it was a gang attack when my daughter entered my room after a couple of minutes, “lady, I am agreed with your son. It is time to replace the dame mutt”.
Both decided to help me to make the 2020 goal. My son said, “eyesight is important, so we will consult the ophthalmologist about your worsening eyesight” this should be goal number 1. I responded right away. “my eyesight is good. It is due to crying excessively. My cornea is covered with an extra layer of tears due to crying excessively. I don’t need an eye specialist. I need to treat my tears”. So improving eyesight and maintaining eye health goals are out of the 2020 goal list now.
The boy wasn’t ready to give up yet so he said,” okay, how about your spine surgery. It has been over 6 months since you received your Tpa for stroke. So there is no contraindication for surgery. The surgeon is willing to repair both fractures at the same time. Your lumbar and cervical fractures need to be cemented, but the cervical spine fracture is very important to fix the cervical spine fracture sooner. The doctor said that cervical injury compromises your fingers during the last visit. That is the reason that you don’t have a sensation in your fingers.
She answered quickly to his question, “why do I need surgery? I don’t feel pain at all. Have you guys seen me taking Tylenol or ibuprofen? Why do I have to go under anesthesia and knife? All I need is a well-cushioned collar for my neck. I sometimes feel my neck not cooperating with my head and body. I really need to support the neck. Both of you should give me a nice neck collar as a Christmas gift. So, this second goal of 2020 is already completed in 2019.
I was thinking, “I will rather work if I want to spend 2020 around the doctors”.
In my mind, I was thinking of talking with my primary care doctor to tell her that do not to use my kids to convince me for the surgeries. She is not only my doctor but also a good friend who wants me to recover.
My little one said, “you spent your entire life studying. So make a 2020 goal going back to your work”.
I was like this,” I am lazy and don’t feel like working. I don’t like every day ends up dealing with similar things. No, I am good just filling the blanks”. So my 3rd goal for 2020 is completed without initiating it.
The girl said, “how about working on a good relationship with your family and friends.” Before she completed the sentences, I got agitated and told them, “leave my room and mind your business. Work on your goals, not mine”.
The boy said, “okay, how about traveling the world instead of driving around the forests.” That is a good idea, boy. I will make the plan in 2020 where to travel in 2021.”
Both left the room, but it makes me think about making my own 2020 goals. First, I would stay in the Valley for at least six months. Then, I will stay away from humans, reality, conflicts, and my father’s principles. This is my 2020 goal. It is achievable and affordable.
It is not a cup of my tea to go to the gym due to multiple injuries and broken bones. I can add another goal in 2020, “no more car accidents.” I have always been scared of anesthesia. Once, he had promised to stay along with me during the surgery. The titanic rods need to come out of my arm. The rods in my arm often cause tendonitis and cellulitis. He did not fulfill his promise, so why I should go for surgery.
In the end, I have two goals: Return to the Valley and stay there for at least 4-6 months, and no more car accidents.